I woke up at six, and felt the cold december air. It felt so good, I went back dozing my ass off again. :) And so, I woke up at 10. WTTHE. Am I that sleepy? Did I need that long sleep? Siguro kung hindi ako natulog uli, inaantok ako ngayon. So okay na din. Lol. Someone texted, saying that it's Holy Guacamole December once again! Nun ko lang narealize na, oh no, it is really december hugging my thighs and everything.

By the way, I shifted to this simple-looking layout because I think it defines me. It's colors are girly, but I love it over-all! :)

So... What am I gonna talk about? I got two stories to tell. One is my fantasy of my ever-good looking crush. :) Another is my addiction to House. And one more thing, so it's three pala. My high school story and this boredom that keep me tucked in. Meron pa pala! O four na. Yung RS Musical. :)

One - CRUSH!!!!!

Yesterday is Sunday, right? So since it was a weekly ritual to visit God every Sunday, we went to church. But this Sunday was a different Sunday. :) Usually, we go to St. Joseph for the mass. The whole family attends the 6 PM mass. If you remember, this is the time slot where I get to see my past crush altar boy. But seriously now, I don't find him cute anymore. HAHAHA. So proceeding to my story, even though we are living beside the church, we still find ourselves rushing. Oo. Lagi padin kaming late. HAHAHA. Since I just finished taking a bath and I am still preparing myself,, and my brothers also, my mom and dad went to church first. We always stay in this one place, so we know where to proceed. But then, when we finished fixing ourselves, my dad came back saying that we shall go to Columban na lang. The reason? He saw his bestfrenemy. Was he that mad that we need to adjust for this enemy?? Maybe, he is thinking that he can't concentrate with this man in diameter. I was just shocked of this 'too much staying away'. But I thought, so what, if we're going to Columban??

We then went to the second choice church and marched off. We chose a place outside, since the pews are all occupied and.. and it's cold outside. :) Bearable than inside. I was concentrating myself when suddenly, a car unloaded its passengers just beside me. I looked around, because if any car will do that, that will be my first reaction. And I notice everything as always, and I am not busy with anything, so I glanced back. When I saw who came down the car, it was my ultimate crush!!!!!! Oo! Ultimate to the level na matagal ko na siyang hinahanap. Di ko alam bat di ko na siya nakikita. Pero sobrang napangiti ako nung nakita ko siya! He's with the whole family. :)

He changed a lot, pare! Tumaba siya! But I don't know if that's fat or muscle, basta his body suited his face. :) His face is so white and looks so smooth. Super gwapeeng talaga. He is wearing this green striped sweater, parang Nate ba! Tumangkad din siya! Grabe. His fashion sense changed. Dati super gangster yon e. Ewan ko kung anong nangyare ngayon! Para siyang model. Oh God. Nag-thank you ako kagad kay God. Hahaha. And.. I really felt pink swirls rounding my cheeks. Bigla akong lumipat ng pwesto, kasi uncomfortable na sobrang lapit lang niya sakin. Baka mapatingin ako ng mapatingin, maweirdohan saken! HAHAHA. So I went beside my brother. Lumipat ako sa kabila, pero in that exact place, natatanaw ko pa din siya from the window. TAE! Parang love at first sight na ewan! Hahaha.

Kabatch ko lang tong guy na to e! I had a crush on him since the day I saw him when we were just kindergarten students. He studied in my brother's school and I went into a different school. Up to nung nakita ko siya nung third year, krush ko pa din siya e. But sadly nung time na yon, he has his beautiful girlfriend. Nalungkot talaga ako. HAHAHA. Now, I saw him texting when the mass is currently going on, so I thought, he might still have a girlfriend. It's so sad...

Yun. The mass ended. I glance at him every three minutes. Hahaha. I am satisfied with that. Sobrang saya ko na na nakita ko siya nung gabing yon! Some part of my body told me that I want a boyfriend. :p I WANT HIM.

SANA MAKITA KO SIYA ULE!!!! :ppp Nakikiusap ulit ako kay destiny!

JASPER, baby! Hopefully, no one who is connected to him ang makabasa nito. ;p

Two - House!!!!!

In this long vacation of mine, I always take a dose of House. Yeah. The sitcom with the silly doctor. He looks so funny. I realized that he looks exactly like Bart Simpson! HAHAHAHA. It's so crookedly funny!!! House is a sarcastic doctor, who loves teasing and irritating people with his irritating attitude. He is a miserable cripple, and he is a drug addict. Addicted to Vicodin, his painkillers for his leg. He is still a good man. And even though, he hates everybody, and vice versa, he is still the greatest diagnostician, so they still cherish his existence. ü I love Dr. Chase, his accent, his nice hair, and his good looks! Dr. Cameron, on the other hand, finds admiration for Dr. House. She's a smart, sexy doctor! And Dr. Foreman, the black funny doctor! They are all matched for the series. I always laugh when I'm watching. I am now in Season 2! Yehey. :) I'll watch later.

Three - My High School and Boredom Story

So... I'm calling out all the seniors. AREN'T YOU EXCITED? THRILLED? RETREAT STARTS TOMORROW. I don't know if I should be sad or jumping with glee! This is one celebration for the Senior checklist, that earns a check this Wednesday. I think I should feel both. Sad, because, it's a sad thing! We'll be crying our asses out. Thinking of all the memories we've shared... Thinking that we are close to leaving. I can't imagine all of us going separate ways, but I think it's time. Jumping with glee, because it's a bonding moment for all of us!!! :) I might as well think of the two as good things. I realized that this life really worked out for me. I am so happy. I am so thankful for all the friends I have known in this life. I love them. :)

We are having this long vacation, since today is a holiday and the two days after this day is our retreat. I don't even know what holiday am I celebrating. Um. Is it sitting-all-day holiday? Hahaha. Well. I have been strutting myself into this seat for almost the whole day! Nyahaha. I am even starving myself, because the mirror is just beside me. I always see how fat I am turning every crouch and crunch, and every minute I remain in this swivelchair. Hahaha.

Tomorrow is my grandma's birthday! Many people are sure to come! She is having her celebration with a lot of food! Oh no. :) Since the 'handaan' is at lunch time, and since I am going to the retreat at one pm, maabutan ko pa ang masarap na kainan! YEHEY. :)

*I should be buying foodums today. For tomorrow's cracklings and dut duts. ;)

Four - RS MUSICAL!!!!

Yeah. Our school will be preparing for the RS MUSICAL: SENIOR YEAR! Every senior will take part in the play! Yeah. We are the stars! We are all so excited! We hope everyone supports our show! But before that, every senior shall release that inner confidence in him. If we want something successful, no shy guy shall hinder the plans! Talagang todo bigay lahat kung gusto diba! Walang hiya-hiya! Goodluck naman sakin! Hahaha. The casting crew already have the list.. And the script was already made. Kulang na lang talaga yung starting day of preparation, at ang readiness ng lahat! Hahaha.

I will play Sharpey for the 'I Want It All' song with Ryan. OMG. It's a bit long. I hope I can do it! Hahahaha. Goodluck to everyone! This is something we leave to the alma mater. :)

May God help us out! MWAAA Seniors.

Goodbye for one day!
TOODLES!

Labels: boredom, crush, happy, hot, House, life, school, seniors, vacation

Grabe. Malala. Todas.
I just came home from HELL.
Please. Anybody tell me now that this is HELL WEEK!

Namamaga ako. Seriously. I went to the derma and I wasn't expecting something bloody!!! Garabe. From this moment on, natatakot na kong hawakan yung face ko. Kasi I'm too scared to feel pain from my own fingers. Alam mo yung scared to the fact na baka simpleng haplos lang sa mukha ko, umiyak na ko sa sakit??

So that is what they call 'facial'? Hindi ko nga alam kung simpleng facial ba yung ginawa sakin? Para akong sinurgery. Lol. Am I exaggerating? overacting? o totoong seryoso lang talaga? Isa pa dun, I WASN'T EVEN WARNED! I lie down in that bed without knowing the torture! But now, I am laughing that I handled it. Though, it still hurts when I remember. I want to kick myself up so that the pain will stop. I wish there was anesthesia.

I keep on saying to myself na ganto na ba talaga kalala yung mukha ko at kelangan kong magsurpass ng gantong pain? It's as if there's this demon shouting, "SUFFER CHARMENN. SUFFER. or more likely, DIE CHARMENN. DIE.

I don't want to remember the exact happenings inside that sickly room. The thing was, THAT WAS HELL!!. And then before going away to that place, I am going through some parts every week, and the not-so-bloody part every four weeks. Talk about FEARS, PAIN, and MONEY!! I pity my parents. This should be heavy in their pockets. But they can't do anything. They want me to not be feeling any inferiority complex later in my life.

My dad explained that they are willing to help me amidst the crisis, just to refrain me from any unsuccessful vibes in the future. Well, the thing is, of course if I have an ugly face and not-so-high confident level, I won't be performing nice in the corporate world. If ever I will land in that portion of the world. Or in any aspect, it's a big matter if your problem is your face. So I AM FINE. Through all of that.

Bakit ba kasi ako pinanganak na may curse na ganto e no? I WANNA CURSE THESE PIMPLES. But I am just so lovable, di nila ako maiwan! Lol. I am going crazy despite the tear-jerking ouchness.

I was ashamed kanina. I can't hold back my tears. Ewan ko ba. Nahihiya ako. I felt, ako lang kaya yung ganun? But anyway, maybe Doc himself understood. Dapat lang no! :) I just wish this will result into something nice. I am so tired of all the future complications. This should outcome into something better.

I have been watching The Hills Season 3. I had one episode only since the net buffers soooooo slow. I'll just buy pirated dvds. I still have four days, ayt? And also, I watched an episode of the X Effect in mtv.com, it was funny but it pissed me though. Lol. Check it out yourself.

I hovered into channels and watched an episode from Grey's Anatomy! I had fun. I missed the funny episodes. I miss Dr. Grey, Christina, Burke, McDreamy, O Malley, KAREV!!! Wooot. Hot. And I forgot the name of Heigl in the show. :)

I downloaded new songs, particularly soundtracks from The Hills. They put a lot of incredible songs in that show, so lovely!

I found the new love of my life!!!! I was surfing for a good channel, when I hit Star Movies. I saw a half-naked man! And then I saw the face!! Oh my god pure hotness!!!!!! And then since I don't know his name, I searched it in the net. Unang-una pa lang tama na hula ko! Nagduda lang talaga ako, kasi iba itsura niya dun! It is JOSH HARTNETT!!!!! HE IS DEFINITELY HOT!!!! OMFFFFFFFFFFFFFFGoodness! He must be fake, he looks perfect! I wish he was Edward Cullen in the Twilight movie. The problem, though, is he has a bad boy image. I mean, Edward is pure good! And Hartnett suits bad action movies. But even though, his hotness matches Cullen! AWWWWWW Dead na deads na ko sa unggoy na yon!! POGE POGE POGE! GWAPENG GWAPENG GWAPENG ALERT!! I wish he's mine. Lol.

We'll be going to Manila tomorrow. :) I wanna have a good time. Though, I won't be able to watch Uno in Campus King and Queen [Casual&Sports Wear?] Uno, I'll watch the next time. (:

*Good I-Wish-No-Pain Night. (:

Labels: brave, hot, josh hartnett, pain, pimples, sembreak

Saturday is a hoe. The heat flirts with me like hell. Am I in Sahara?? I totally hate bed-lingering Saturdays in the verge of a heatastrophic afternoon. Anyway, I finished the 'Breaking Dawn'. I was not to the nth satisfied. I wanted more and wanted less at the same time. I don't know, maybe the ending was not bloodtickling enough. Or because of the too-much-ongoing-suspense that I hadn't enjoyed. Or or or, third reason, maybe the temperature was not cooperating at all with my supposed-to-be-enthusiastic-feeling for the book. I even find myself uncomfortable in any position I do.

Bella's life in the Breaking Dawn did not entertain me anymore. Her powers are too exaggerated, maybe it's too much for a suckling. Lol. I kind of hated her in that. I still love Jacob, by the way. I love how Blondie and Mongrel kill each other with their jokes... bad jokes. Lol. Renesmee in my head is cute! The loch ness monster. Edward lost me a bit. I find him predictable these chapters. Anyway, I found cute names. They are vampires from different covens, and I enjoyed knowing their different supernatural powers. Meanwhile, the werewolves were too loyal, they are dogs! I see Karl Kamaganak Serna in Seth. That kid mutt. He is a friendly peep. I wish to read Midnight Sun later or tomorrow or whenever since I find myself locked in the house for the SEMBREAK.

My mom and dad went home last night around 9PM. They have Goldilocks Brownies as pasalubong again. Me and my brothers had enough of that food, we don't look forward into eating it anymore. Lol. They congratulated me with my achievement and they said we'll have a celebration tomorrow! Another Coco Lime bonding maybe. Although I want to eat at Meat Plus! I've been craving for their too-good APPLE PIE! And I've been longing for their Mash Potato, and New York Steak. I miss that place. (: But still, Coco's Chicken Sisig still gave me a bloated tummy tonight. I even screamed for a Strawberry scoop after a mouthful of Sisig. ;p

Anyway, I received an invitation from my cousin's daughter's christening. I was asked to be a godparent! As in! Well, maybe I expected of that since I knew it earlier through the YM. It'll be held this Thursday, October 30, but sadly, I can't attend cause I'll have my trip to my derma. And, my dad is not around. 20 pairs naman yung ninong at ninang! Mapapansin pa ba yung kawalan ko dun? Hahaha.

What's with my sembreak? Eto palang mga plans ko...

October 26 (tomorrow) - Nothing. I'll stay in my house. It's Taperla and Ryan's birthday, though. But they are not holding any celebrations! Sayang.
October 27 - Kalis + SSG meeting in school. We are to talk of the following events to be held in school. For SSG, Halloween Bazaar is coming up, while for Kalis, we'll be having a month of headaches. There is Mr and Ms UN. We'll kill ourselves again. Remind me of getting mg Chemistry notebook, I'll finish my lectures. I don't even consider myself a student these days! For heaven's sake! I feel like I am not learning scientific anymore. Lol.
October 28 - NOTHING YET. I'll still plan of our Investigatory Project meetings. We need it.
October 29 - STILL. NOTHING YET.
October 30 - I'm going to my dermatologist. I hope for a change with my still-ugly face. Whatever. I'm finding improvements naman no!
October 31 - I'll join my dad to a trip to Manila. The reason is nothing. I just want to do something outside our old house. Maybe I'll find something interesting. (: I wish Shim is still in Manila, so that I can rummage around somewhere with someone. Lol.
November 1 - A day in the cemetery. It's the usual. Then six o clock might sound hanging out with the SC people. Ang nakagawian! I miss them.
November 2 - It's cousin Anne's birthday! She is sadly in London. I'll just wish her happiness and everything she wants in this pitiful world. Lol.
November 3 - Sembreak goodbyes!

Then November 5 hits a bang. It's classes once again. And my death is walking around, IT IS KALIS MONTH ALREADY!!

Sobrang hirap ako sa paghinga! Ansaket ng lungs ko! Langya. I don't understand if this is a problem with the medicine I just pushed through my throat, o talagang normal na to? I hate these. Ayaw niya mawala! Don't tell me I am dying!!! No. Hahaha.

I'll be putting the lyrics of Hot N Cold by Katy Perry. I just enjoy it nowadays. (:

HOT N COLD
Katy Perry

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah, you PMS like a bitch
I would know

Yeah, you always think
Always speak cryptically
I should know
That you're no good for me

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be just like twins, so in sync
The same energy now's a dead battery
Used to laugh 'bout nothing
Now you're plain boring
I should know
That you're not gonna change

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bipolar
Stuck on a rollercoaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down, down, down, down...

Hopefully, mawala na tong mapaklang sakit ng dibdib ko. Pati, yung pawala-walang signal ng Globe, umayos na sana! I can't enjoy my Unlitxt.. Too bad.

*Goodnight. (:

Labels: food, hot, lyrics, pain, sembreak

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