I woke up at six, and felt the cold december air. It felt so good, I went back dozing my ass off again. :) And so, I woke up at 10. WTTHE. Am I that sleepy? Did I need that long sleep? Siguro kung hindi ako natulog uli, inaantok ako ngayon. So okay na din. Lol. Someone texted, saying that it's Holy Guacamole December once again! Nun ko lang narealize na, oh no, it is really december hugging my thighs and everything.

By the way, I shifted to this simple-looking layout because I think it defines me. It's colors are girly, but I love it over-all! :)

So... What am I gonna talk about? I got two stories to tell. One is my fantasy of my ever-good looking crush. :) Another is my addiction to House. And one more thing, so it's three pala. My high school story and this boredom that keep me tucked in. Meron pa pala! O four na. Yung RS Musical. :)

One - CRUSH!!!!!

Yesterday is Sunday, right? So since it was a weekly ritual to visit God every Sunday, we went to church. But this Sunday was a different Sunday. :) Usually, we go to St. Joseph for the mass. The whole family attends the 6 PM mass. If you remember, this is the time slot where I get to see my past crush altar boy. But seriously now, I don't find him cute anymore. HAHAHA. So proceeding to my story, even though we are living beside the church, we still find ourselves rushing. Oo. Lagi padin kaming late. HAHAHA. Since I just finished taking a bath and I am still preparing myself,, and my brothers also, my mom and dad went to church first. We always stay in this one place, so we know where to proceed. But then, when we finished fixing ourselves, my dad came back saying that we shall go to Columban na lang. The reason? He saw his bestfrenemy. Was he that mad that we need to adjust for this enemy?? Maybe, he is thinking that he can't concentrate with this man in diameter. I was just shocked of this 'too much staying away'. But I thought, so what, if we're going to Columban??

We then went to the second choice church and marched off. We chose a place outside, since the pews are all occupied and.. and it's cold outside. :) Bearable than inside. I was concentrating myself when suddenly, a car unloaded its passengers just beside me. I looked around, because if any car will do that, that will be my first reaction. And I notice everything as always, and I am not busy with anything, so I glanced back. When I saw who came down the car, it was my ultimate crush!!!!!! Oo! Ultimate to the level na matagal ko na siyang hinahanap. Di ko alam bat di ko na siya nakikita. Pero sobrang napangiti ako nung nakita ko siya! He's with the whole family. :)

He changed a lot, pare! Tumaba siya! But I don't know if that's fat or muscle, basta his body suited his face. :) His face is so white and looks so smooth. Super gwapeeng talaga. He is wearing this green striped sweater, parang Nate ba! Tumangkad din siya! Grabe. His fashion sense changed. Dati super gangster yon e. Ewan ko kung anong nangyare ngayon! Para siyang model. Oh God. Nag-thank you ako kagad kay God. Hahaha. And.. I really felt pink swirls rounding my cheeks. Bigla akong lumipat ng pwesto, kasi uncomfortable na sobrang lapit lang niya sakin. Baka mapatingin ako ng mapatingin, maweirdohan saken! HAHAHA. So I went beside my brother. Lumipat ako sa kabila, pero in that exact place, natatanaw ko pa din siya from the window. TAE! Parang love at first sight na ewan! Hahaha.

Kabatch ko lang tong guy na to e! I had a crush on him since the day I saw him when we were just kindergarten students. He studied in my brother's school and I went into a different school. Up to nung nakita ko siya nung third year, krush ko pa din siya e. But sadly nung time na yon, he has his beautiful girlfriend. Nalungkot talaga ako. HAHAHA. Now, I saw him texting when the mass is currently going on, so I thought, he might still have a girlfriend. It's so sad...

Yun. The mass ended. I glance at him every three minutes. Hahaha. I am satisfied with that. Sobrang saya ko na na nakita ko siya nung gabing yon! Some part of my body told me that I want a boyfriend. :p I WANT HIM.

SANA MAKITA KO SIYA ULE!!!! :ppp Nakikiusap ulit ako kay destiny!

JASPER, baby! Hopefully, no one who is connected to him ang makabasa nito. ;p

Two - House!!!!!

In this long vacation of mine, I always take a dose of House. Yeah. The sitcom with the silly doctor. He looks so funny. I realized that he looks exactly like Bart Simpson! HAHAHAHA. It's so crookedly funny!!! House is a sarcastic doctor, who loves teasing and irritating people with his irritating attitude. He is a miserable cripple, and he is a drug addict. Addicted to Vicodin, his painkillers for his leg. He is still a good man. And even though, he hates everybody, and vice versa, he is still the greatest diagnostician, so they still cherish his existence. ü I love Dr. Chase, his accent, his nice hair, and his good looks! Dr. Cameron, on the other hand, finds admiration for Dr. House. She's a smart, sexy doctor! And Dr. Foreman, the black funny doctor! They are all matched for the series. I always laugh when I'm watching. I am now in Season 2! Yehey. :) I'll watch later.

Three - My High School and Boredom Story

So... I'm calling out all the seniors. AREN'T YOU EXCITED? THRILLED? RETREAT STARTS TOMORROW. I don't know if I should be sad or jumping with glee! This is one celebration for the Senior checklist, that earns a check this Wednesday. I think I should feel both. Sad, because, it's a sad thing! We'll be crying our asses out. Thinking of all the memories we've shared... Thinking that we are close to leaving. I can't imagine all of us going separate ways, but I think it's time. Jumping with glee, because it's a bonding moment for all of us!!! :) I might as well think of the two as good things. I realized that this life really worked out for me. I am so happy. I am so thankful for all the friends I have known in this life. I love them. :)

We are having this long vacation, since today is a holiday and the two days after this day is our retreat. I don't even know what holiday am I celebrating. Um. Is it sitting-all-day holiday? Hahaha. Well. I have been strutting myself into this seat for almost the whole day! Nyahaha. I am even starving myself, because the mirror is just beside me. I always see how fat I am turning every crouch and crunch, and every minute I remain in this swivelchair. Hahaha.

Tomorrow is my grandma's birthday! Many people are sure to come! She is having her celebration with a lot of food! Oh no. :) Since the 'handaan' is at lunch time, and since I am going to the retreat at one pm, maabutan ko pa ang masarap na kainan! YEHEY. :)

*I should be buying foodums today. For tomorrow's cracklings and dut duts. ;)

Four - RS MUSICAL!!!!

Yeah. Our school will be preparing for the RS MUSICAL: SENIOR YEAR! Every senior will take part in the play! Yeah. We are the stars! We are all so excited! We hope everyone supports our show! But before that, every senior shall release that inner confidence in him. If we want something successful, no shy guy shall hinder the plans! Talagang todo bigay lahat kung gusto diba! Walang hiya-hiya! Goodluck naman sakin! Hahaha. The casting crew already have the list.. And the script was already made. Kulang na lang talaga yung starting day of preparation, at ang readiness ng lahat! Hahaha.

I will play Sharpey for the 'I Want It All' song with Ryan. OMG. It's a bit long. I hope I can do it! Hahahaha. Goodluck to everyone! This is something we leave to the alma mater. :)

May God help us out! MWAAA Seniors.

Goodbye for one day!
TOODLES!

Labels: boredom, crush, happy, hot, House, life, school, seniors, vacation

I had this ultimate feeling, na sobrang ages ago ko pa ata huling naramdaman. So, let me share to you my own Nicholas Sparks version love story. Haha. Crush story lang ata tawag dito.

So, every Sunday kasi I go to church. Exactly, every 6.15 PM ung start ng mass. Sa St. Jo kasi ako nagchuchurch. E there are two sides of the church, the left and the right. We always stay and not sit -- so we stand in the right side. The altarboys are in the left side facing the churchgoers. So since, they are facing half-right, sakto sakin yung mga mukha nilang mga SAKRISTAN! :DD

There was this boy na narealize kong cute pala. Matagal nadevelop tong cuteness pansin na to. Hindi lang isang Sunday. Mga 2 sundays bago ko narealize na cute siya. After two more Sundays, I always find him in that same spot.... and yun, it always happen na pinagmamasdan ko siya. TAE. Since it was a bit far to be sure, nakatingin ako lagi sa kanya pero hindi ko alam kung nakatingin siya sakin. Maybe normal looks lang, kasi wala siyang magagawa. He is close to God so close din sa kanya yung tinitignan ko. Walang ibang mapansin at makita, so I realize na I always look at him. MALARET. :p

After 2 more Sundays, siya na lang talaga yung napapansin ko sa altar. Other than the priest when he's having a sermon, and my personal talk with God. Pero other than the two, siya na lang talaga. TAE. Hanggang sa napapansin ko na pati yung, siya ung nagriring ng bells pag naka-kneel down lahat. Ewan ko ba. It seemed automatic.

And then, when it's communion time, it's him with the priest I fall in line to. So lagi ko siyang nakakalapit. Whatdahek. Pinag-aralan ko na mga features niya. I studied his eyes. Malamlam. Not really, but his eyes are expressive at napaka-quiet looking. ANG PEACEFUL NG MATA NIYA. Matangos yung ilong niya. Tapos ung lips niya, thin. Perfect lang. HAHAHA. Natatawa ako sa sarili ko. How would I know if ones lips are perfect? OH GOD, THIS IS SOMETHING. Lol.

I observed his whole face, he seem to be really quiet. Mukha talaga siyang tahimik at mukhang devoted sa ginagawa nia. Pero how would I know, I just experiment these hypotheses by just cursory glances. At isa pa, hindi siya mukang sakristan na napilitan lang maging altarboy dahil gusto ng nanay niya. Again, I don't know anything. Everything is just my observation of his face and body language. Hahaha.

Napakagaling ko sa bagay na to. Studying faces and everything. I should get a course related to this. Lol. AYUN. I realized that he's not too tall. Maybe, he's taller than me or not. He is not malaman. Thin. Um. Normal thin. :D Tapos yung complexion niya parang pale but not too pale. Basta hindi siya maitim! Tapos, under his eyes are purple circles. Not exactly purple. Nakuha ko lang ung adjective kay Stephanie Meyer. Hahaha. Bsta halata ung circles under his eyes. Habang dinedescribe ko tong crush ko kina Hanna, they told me na, so he's your Edward??

I laughed. Nun ko lang narealize na pwede, pwede!!! And then, another Sunday, I realized may kahawig siya sa school! Pero sobrang pogi niya pa din kumpara sa kahawig niyang yon. :DD

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Today, I rode the schoolbus from school. It was as dark as the dark knight. What is this humor I have! Hahaha. I came home 6:15 and the exact step of my foot on the ground from the bus, I noticed this guy who walked across the driveway of our house. Since, katabi lang namin ang St. Joseph Church, sigurado na kong tiga St. Jo siya, and I noticed the khaki pants. Tinignan ko kagad yung face... Guess what I noticed...


HE'S "MY" ALTARBOY. :DDDDDDD

Yun nga lang..... A big sigh.. I am not sure kung siya talaga si altarboy ko... E kasi sobrang saglit ko lang nakita. Pero totally, kamukha talaga nia. Hindi ko alam kung siya ba talaga yon, o the whole day or these days, siya lang talaga yung iniisip ko!!! I went to our gate, knocked one time and went back into the street to check kung makikita ko padin siya kahit sobrang layo na!!! HINDI KO SIYA NAKITA! Napansin ko. Ambilis naman niya!!! There are only three reasons. It's either ambilis niya maglakad, ambagal ko, or nakatira siya somewhere sa mga apartments beside us. Oh God!!! HOW I WISH. This feeling is so different. Ngayon ko lang naexperience tong kind of excitement and hysteria from someone I barely know! TAE TALAGA.

Eto pa ang mabigat. While I was waiting for someone to open the green gate for me, I am imagining him coming back.... and I would be saying HI. And then I made a promise to myself. :D The next time I see him, I will acquire a large amount of confidence!!! And I will say HI. Or even, I will ask him to be friends with me...

THIS IS SO MUCH DIFFERENT. THIS IS CRAZY.

A different crazy kinda crush. I created an SMS group message and Pot and Puto Pao said that this is OBSESSION. But I said NO. Maybe I am just finding someone that would make me happy. And right now, he is the one giving me all that joy and inspiration. Who knows, we might be for each other!!! WAAAAH. TOTAL CRAZINESS!!!! :DDD

I want to see him again. :D Maybe later, in my dreams.
Angchaka!
I can't wait for Sunday.


NEXT AGENDA: I WANT TO SEE HIM SMILE. :DDDD

Labels: crazy, crush, excitement, love

Everything went fine this day! MOSTLY EVERYTHING. This was the last day of pressure. And tomorrow is killing time. It's a spree, so view us die in the chairs of journalism. I am totally perspired of all the writings I made today. I just wrote two articles, yet it was the heaviest of the 10 I made in the whole training. Dang, was it oppressing? But anyway, I chose this. I wanted this. Better take responsibility for it. That's a big girl's way of dealing with it. (: YAHOO.

*I drank Nesvita in the morning, but my medicine turned it bitter, I hate it! I wish to kill all my pills today, for crying out loud! I woke up early today! It killed all my presumptions of waking late every day of my life. Lol. My dad woke me up before hearing any rooster-cocking of my phone! (:

*I am so addicted to the song "Forget About Me" right now, I can't get it out of my nerves! FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!! -that was Stephenie Meyer's expression. (It's like 'for the love of Gooood'.) And also, my addiction revolves on Twilight, specifically on Breaking Dawn's language! FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! and DANG!. (Dang = Damn.) I enjoyed reading this afternoon, it felt like a medicine for the jaded. ((:

*I went to school and saw my girl doodies. It was early morning gossip + HATING. Lol. We talked of LUCY, as ever. Even the ugly and dumb girls in friendster were the center of the convo. WE ARE EARLY MEAN! Well, the day will be mean to me later.

*7.30 is the call time, FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! Lol. I should be stopping this nonsense screaming! I was still lazy, because bed bugs followed me this morning to school. I am still a heck of sleepy! Thanks anyway to Pat, for letting me borrow her BREAKING DAWN. I am really enjoying it now. Hugs! Continuing on the scene, I went with Pat and Edane to the caff. Just to wait for the exact point of 30 in our watches, and just to let loose of the pressure meeting us later. And then we proceeded to the LIB.

*This was a different day! There was a different vibe that circled the library. It was not something like a ghost! MAYBE THE LEGACY HAUNTS US.... I super hate pressure. Last day of writing, yet I am too lazy to start something nice. I finished my first article, and then I passed it. I was hurt with what Ma'am said. Wala ka pa atang nasusulat na maganda. DANG! FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! I lost my essence, and my inspiration and everything... I almost died although I took it as a challenge. I kind of felt madness, since I really spurted out all my brain's goo just to fill out her expectations. Too bad.

*Good thing lunch time came! And holy, was I hungry?? I loved the Spaghetti and the Chicken Mamsi cooked for us. When I want back to my seat, I wondered that it was not enough for me, so I was really keeping my fingers crossed to allow us have a second time around the table! When Yn and I heard the call that we can still have more, we glided fast and got another chicken and plate of spag! It was a blessed day! ... And tomorrow is not. DANG IT! Lol.

*SSG had a meeting. It was for the Halloween Bazaar. Supposedly post bazaar. I am excited, and I hope it'll be a success. The meeting came, and I am still heads on on my article... This is a ruin to my day. But seeing EMMAN!, he is my crush these past days! Lol. And Edwin, Blotty/Blacky, seems to be jealous. Ayeeee. Ikaw ah! Lol. I really love the journalism people. (:

*There had been unexpected/expected strangers in the school. They we're. But I am not giving much attention as anyone expects me to! It's just like a gush of wind dropped by. That's it. I still miss some of them though. NOTE: SOME OF THEM. ;p

*2PM came and it was early dismissal. We gathered around for a short prayer. Actually a long one, from 10 megajournalists. I kind of laughed halfway through the prayer because of some funny voice, APOLOGIES. But still, I went on concentrating on my part of the request. My shrilled bones for tomorrow are not yet ready to break. I'll save it for nervousness tonight....

Tomorrow is DEATH. I shall prove something before going away. Maybe I deserve something after all. I let my seriousness rule in my training, and I really put myself to the test if I can do it, and so I did had fun. I just want to have fun tomorrow. I WANT TO! Still, I will keep my prayer on having an award! It is a shame having others get a place in the top10 when I did not.... I SHALL DO MY BEST! And I am really doing and spilling my best tomorrow. THE DEAD HOUR IS CLOSE... It's far better to pursue something than nothing, anyway! :x

I'll call an early goodnight! I'll be doing the project of my brother, anyway, I'll text EMMAN later. Lol.

Labels: crush, death, journalism, pressure, the twilight saga

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