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I just changed the spelling of my name from CHARMAINE to CHARMAIGNE. I don't know, I must have enjoyed it with a G. It will really look more classy, if it would have been like that. Well, I thought of making it CHARMOEN (to look German). I am a proud Filipino, yet I get to be a critique when it comes to names. Since you'll stick with it forever why not change it into the way you like it, right? I've always wanted to add Maria infront of it, to look old-Pinoy-fashioned, and because I am jealous that most of my friends got two first names unlike me who got a simple English name, Charmaine. My last name is purely Filipino that is DIMACULANGAN. In the Philippines it means "enough" or more close to its articulation "not less". I was always teased when I am in grade school, but then I learn that people mature and get on with their life without getting to find my last name funny. I am turning sixteen on March, getting to know COLLEGE more, so I expect people to be mature than they are supposed to be. CHARMAINE means a beautiful orchard. I am definitely not an orchard, so I'll agree with being beautiful. ;p It also means "to sing", which is quite oppressive and pressure-giving since I don't got a voice the name CHARMAINE should be having. I just love to sing karaoke songs! It also means "to be a rich and successful lady", that is, I just made it up. But I know it'll come true. ;p All in all, I am enjoying my almost-sixteen years of existence, I don't want to finish it off with stupid things and beliefs. I have always wanted to enjoy life, and that's what I'm doing. I walk in the street certain of tripping myself with the pavement or just with my own foot, and I am proud of it. I will see pretty girls walking with me in the same sidewalk, but I will not develop the stimulus called INSECURITY. I will cherish my supercalifragilistic moments, and I will absolutely share it to people like you. :)

Screams
Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Grabe. Malala. Todas.
I just came home from HELL.
Please. Anybody tell me now that this is HELL WEEK!

Namamaga ako. Seriously. I went to the derma and I wasn't expecting something bloody!!! Garabe. From this moment on, natatakot na kong hawakan yung face ko. Kasi I'm too scared to feel pain from my own fingers. Alam mo yung scared to the fact na baka simpleng haplos lang sa mukha ko, umiyak na ko sa sakit??

So that is what they call 'facial'? Hindi ko nga alam kung simpleng facial ba yung ginawa sakin? Para akong sinurgery. Lol. Am I exaggerating? overacting? o totoong seryoso lang talaga? Isa pa dun, I WASN'T EVEN WARNED! I lie down in that bed without knowing the torture! But now, I am laughing that I handled it. Though, it still hurts when I remember. I want to kick myself up so that the pain will stop. I wish there was anesthesia.

I keep on saying to myself na ganto na ba talaga kalala yung mukha ko at kelangan kong magsurpass ng gantong pain? It's as if there's this demon shouting, "SUFFER CHARMENN. SUFFER. or more likely, DIE CHARMENN. DIE.

I don't want to remember the exact happenings inside that sickly room. The thing was, THAT WAS HELL!!. And then before going away to that place, I am going through some parts every week, and the not-so-bloody part every four weeks. Talk about FEARS, PAIN, and MONEY!! I pity my parents. This should be heavy in their pockets. But they can't do anything. They want me to not be feeling any inferiority complex later in my life.

My dad explained that they are willing to help me amidst the crisis, just to refrain me from any unsuccessful vibes in the future. Well, the thing is, of course if I have an ugly face and not-so-high confident level, I won't be performing nice in the corporate world. If ever I will land in that portion of the world. Or in any aspect, it's a big matter if your problem is your face. So I AM FINE. Through all of that.

Bakit ba kasi ako pinanganak na may curse na ganto e no? I WANNA CURSE THESE PIMPLES. But I am just so lovable, di nila ako maiwan! Lol. I am going crazy despite the tear-jerking ouchness.

I was ashamed kanina. I can't hold back my tears. Ewan ko ba. Nahihiya ako. I felt, ako lang kaya yung ganun? But anyway, maybe Doc himself understood. Dapat lang no! :) I just wish this will result into something nice. I am so tired of all the future complications. This should outcome into something better.

I have been watching The Hills Season 3. I had one episode only since the net buffers soooooo slow. I'll just buy pirated dvds. I still have four days, ayt? And also, I watched an episode of the X Effect in mtv.com, it was funny but it pissed me though. Lol. Check it out yourself.

I hovered into channels and watched an episode from Grey's Anatomy! I had fun. I missed the funny episodes. I miss Dr. Grey, Christina, Burke, McDreamy, O Malley, KAREV!!! Wooot. Hot. And I forgot the name of Heigl in the show. :)

I downloaded new songs, particularly soundtracks from The Hills. They put a lot of incredible songs in that show, so lovely!

I found the new love of my life!!!! I was surfing for a good channel, when I hit Star Movies. I saw a half-naked man! And then I saw the face!! Oh my god pure hotness!!!!!! And then since I don't know his name, I searched it in the net. Unang-una pa lang tama na hula ko! Nagduda lang talaga ako, kasi iba itsura niya dun! It is JOSH HARTNETT!!!!! HE IS DEFINITELY HOT!!!! OMFFFFFFFFFFFFFFGoodness! He must be fake, he looks perfect! I wish he was Edward Cullen in the Twilight movie. The problem, though, is he has a bad boy image. I mean, Edward is pure good! And Hartnett suits bad action movies. But even though, his hotness matches Cullen! AWWWWWW Dead na deads na ko sa unggoy na yon!! POGE POGE POGE! GWAPENG GWAPENG GWAPENG ALERT!! I wish he's mine. Lol.

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We'll be going to Manila tomorrow. :) I wanna have a good time. Though, I won't be able to watch Uno in Campus King and Queen [Casual&Sports Wear?] Uno, I'll watch the next time. (:

*Good I-Wish-No-Pain Night. (:

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