I read a post by SAMANTHA, talkin' about a whimsical, funky, and undefined dream. It was scary and at the same time very meaningful. It was about love and all the crazy advices anyone can give to a taped, wasted heart. :)

So, I might talk about love today (get yourself ready for the funny and cheesy part). I just realized what love brings to our lives. It's so magical and to-the-umpteenth-level foolish! We all fall for this word, and no matter the too many times we have fallen, we still keep on falling and falling. It's like poison to the lips, but we want to keep drinking. It makes us shatter but we will always mend ourselves to shatter again. It makes us dance to its rhythm and never get tired to its anything-goes beat. Whatever happens we'll always want to be IN LOVE, because despite all the pain and tiresome pages of this adventure, it's like a drug that satisfies our every beating.

Nakakatanga na nga minsan, diba? It's always the battle between the wrong and the right, the real and the fake, the happy and the sad part. We always have to choose, and whatever we choose, we lose. The delightedness is always ephemeral. At a point in time, it always have to end, pero yun na nga, we fall in love more and more. Para tayong mga sadista na natutuwa sa pain at loneliness. Andaming cases ng failed love, pero kahit gaano pa ka-painful at karami na yon, we are still willing to get a dose of it. It's a priceless thing. You won't even care kahit na hindi masuklian yung binigay mo, because you are not buying at all, you just give it. You offer it like a shiny coin to the child beggar. You might (or might not) expect something back, but it doesn't matter as long as you express it. Kahit walang-wala ka na, you will sacrifice everything para lang maiparamdam yung love na yun to this luckiest person.

I'm getting cheesy here, ayoko na! Okay, I'll spill it out. I am going super corny right here because I am loveless today, and that's the piece that's been missing in my life. I have this ultimate crush, but I don't know where to find him! I've got people around me to love, but I just can't find someone for me. I don't want a boyfriend. I don't want commitment. I just want to crush on someone who will also have the tendency to crush on me. That's it. I want a total inspiration, but it looks like it's getting hopeless. Hahaha. Someday is to come, baby.

So, I gotta stop this love thing. I got tired once because of my selflessness. The truth is I've surrendered because it's the right thing. I haven't expressed because I was scared, and I know that it will just make things worse. Nobody knows it but me. I gotta let go because that's what it's supposed to be. I thought it was easy, but I was wrong. It was super-difficult-close-to-impossible thing. I thought it was a piece of cake, but it was a piece of the worst-tasting, seven-layered chocolate cake. Thoughts can kill (Lahat ng akala, nakakamatay.) Hahaha. I'm getting stupid in here.

I went with Moks and Sea this day for a talk and a small get-together, just to update each and everyone. We talked about a lotta stuffs: family matters, future plans, and the highlight of the night, our dysfunctional lovelife. We all suffer the Cold Christmas syndrome. Yeah, too bad for this year, but we thought of the advantages! We get to not think of the best present for our partners, and we get to enjoy the holidays with family and friends, with no jealousy and love quarrels! Isn't it nice being single? :p

The thing is, love goes around the world. It is always in everyone's world. And it comes in different forms, if you don't know. It doesn't only come in the opposite-sex form. It can come in a family member, in a friend, in a pet, or in that Coke float. All we gotta do is appreciate the love we receive and make things matter. Replace it with love and hug each other. Men will be proud of men. Make more love and less war this Christmas! It's the best gift for everyone! ;p ;p

I gotta go.
Naruto is waiting for me.
Stuck in Episode 153.
I need to go Shippuden, so I gotta move fast!

Enjoy the Holidays!
Toodles!

Labels: get-together, life, love, pain

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