If tears are considered mass to be gained or lost, I should be thin by now! I lost buckets and buckets of tears in our SUPER TERIBLE RETREAT! And other than that, I learned a lot of things. I appreciated a lot of stuffs. I will continue to learn, continue to appreciate, and continue to cherish the left time for us Seniors! :)
December 2 and 3. Who would've thought that these two dates will change our maturities... will wake us from the bitter truths of life... will let us experience the sweetest things with God and friends. The two-day spiritual retreat helped us discover each others' inner self.
We learned about affirmation and rejection. Two opposite things na sobrang nakakaapekto sa buhay ng tao. The first one is a positive thing, like praises and recognition of your presence and existence. It's a happy thing kasi you know that you are not a nobody infront of your friends and family, because they love you! The second awful bitch, rejection, is an eternal enemy. Nobody wants to be rejected. And according to one of our retreat masters, Kuya Rannie, no one has the right to reject us. We are entities to be respected and this nega-thing, it should not let it eat us. That's why God is here to protect us from all the hurt. We just have to hold on. :)
Kuya Rannie, Kuya Zolstie and Kuya Gerald are the facilitators of our event. They are so fun to be with, they really woke our senses up. My favorite parts of the retreat are the:
CIRCLE OF LOVE,
TALKING TO GOD and
HUGGING FRIENDS.
The
Circle of Love taught us to release the pain and all our bad feelings through sharing our weaknesses to the people in the circle. Meanwhile, our appreciation is highlighted in the part where we are affirmed by each and every one in the circle. It is such a delightful thing to be affirmed. Ang sarap pakinggan na minamahal ka ng mga tao with this super-gandang trait na meron ka. Ma-aappreciate mo talaga yung existence mo, once nagsalita na yung mga mahahalagang tao sa buhay mo. Sayang lang kasi we haven't finished the activity. Inabot na kami ng 1 or 2 because of that. Take note: in the morning. Medyo nainip na daw mga teachers namin kaya kailangan na naming tapusin. It feels wrong kasi this is a time to release all the tension, and the reveal your true self, pero parang pinagkait samin ng time. Pero okay pa din. :) Iyakan blues: step 1.
Talking to God is such a super experience! We are all asked to put blindfold hankies in our eyes and we will have a fantasy watchamacallit. Lol. You will imagine this certain scene through certain instructions. I get to talk to God. About the sacrifices of my parents, I know that they give almost everything for us to have a good life, and I don't want to waste all of their hardships. Narealize ko na masyado ako minsan in wanting things, and talking them out of buying it for me. Minsan pala hindi ko napapansin na nahihirapan na sila sa important needs namin, andame ko pang hinahanap. Parang dapat makuntento ako sa kung anong meron ako. And also, I learned of my friends' problems in their families. Sobrang iyakan dito kasi naging sentimental yung mga Terible sa kanilang relationship with their families. Anghirap isipin na yung mga smiling faces na yon e dumadanas pala ng super heavy problem sa loob nila. Mas lalo naming minahal ang isa't-isa. :)
And the best of everything in the retreat...
hugging friends... Ano to, goodbye na ba??? It's so hard to think na magseseparate ways na kami. Ansaket. For the four years of bonding, it seems that it's too soon to be moving on. Parang ambilis ng lahat! Wala namang kalimutan... I just realized that these people infront of me are not ordinary people. Sila ang isang part ng buhay ko kung san sila na ang nagpapatakbo nito. If it weren't for them I will not be super complete like I feel today. Sila ang isa sa pinakamagandang blessing na natanggap ko sa life na to. I will not forget those faces... pati lahat ng pagpapasaya! Hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan..
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Pagdating naman sa place na tinuluyan namin, the ever-beautiful Highlands of Iba, Zambales. Hindi naman kami binigo! Everything went perfect, as it is.
There are two rooms: one for the girls, and the other for the boys. We had triple-deck beds! Super cool! At well-ventilated yung room, hindi ko man lamang naramdaman ang tutok ng araw. The CR is super clean at talagang angganda-ganda! We, girls, enjoyed the mirrors! It made us look white. Ayaw na nga namin umalis sa harap nun e. Haha. A lot of us took a bath at 1 in the morning, pero hindi ako kasama dun. Shinare ko lang kasi napagalitan kami ni Ma'am Sidon. Hahaha. Anlalandi daw namin. Dahil sa walang magawa nung gabing yon, tumakas nanaman kami kay Maam. Lumabas-labas at naghanap ng shooting star. Ang sad para sakin, hindi man lang ako nakakita ng isa! Samantalang yung iba, apat-apat pa yung nakita!
Sa food naman, sobrang nakakabusog! Grabe. Balanced diet talaga. Hindi talaga kami nabigo sa dami ng pinakain samin. Everything tasted good, better, best. Walang not-good food talaga. We even thought na hindi kaya nalugi sila sa mga binayad namin? Hahaha.
The whole place was super clean at mababait naman ang mga tao! Hanna saw and noticed that an American manages the people. So that's why the place is clean daw! Haha. Kasabay namin yung Columban College sa retreat. Sayang. Sana nasolo namin. Pero okay lang naman since minsan lang kami magkadaupangan ng landas! Wow. SUPER FILIPINO NOSEBLEED. Hahaha.
I got no sleep. As in, an hour? Or forty-five minutes?? Tas binulaga ng sobrang lamig na tubig from the shower! Naku, ano kayang napala ko?? Hahaha. Kaya tuloy nung patapos na yung mga sessions, talagang antukan na kami. Everytime na may pinapaimagine, tinatake advantage na namin na matulog. Hahaha. Angkulit!
Again... the experience was the best! The people... everything! Hindi ko to makakalimutan!
Now, my mind is currently offset to sleeping mode kaso marami pa akong gagawin. Tomorrow, our training continues. Yeah, the Journalism training. Medyo nahihirapan ako ngayon kasi hindi talaga gumagana yung utak ko, gustong-gusto na niyang lumanding sa kama, kaya pagkatapos nito, balak ko nang pumuntang Dreamland. :)
Sige. I shall go now! TOODLES! :)
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