It's 6:59 PM, and I just went home after a long walk from MCDO Magsaysay to my house. Its starting to become a once-or-twice-in-a-week routine. It's my only exercise that's why I can always seem to agree on doing it. Well, I enjoy strolling around with my PAREKOIs and LABs, talking about all the nothingness in outerspace, and how time really goes fast. We will really miss this ultra walkathon, with our tongues doing the more-exercise part.

One more thing, I can't believe that I can NOT RIDE the school bus and go home until seven when my mom and dad is not around. I know, I know, I'm being too not-following-directions, but I think, this is the only mega pill I need to satisfy my remaining 57 days of high school.

So, this day, I had nothing to do, but to remain seated, write in my journal, talk nonsensical things, and just dream about life. That is the pure essence of my weekdays. I enjoy doing the simplest things and talking to the best-EST people. ;)

I haven't eaten a lot for two reasons: (1) to be FIT AND RIGHT, and (2) to save money. Okay, I am not certain if it's the RIGHT thing in being fit, I just don't want to spend at all. I don't even know what I am saving for, I just want to keep some bills in my wallet. Maybe it's because I realize that I am OVER OVERSPENDING these days, that I might as well try to UNDER UNDERSPENDING.

Anyway, talking about my FEBRUARY, it gets broken and broken as 14 comes close. I really want someone to cuddle with in the day of hearts. It's supposed to be a day for me and a person I really think is special, or I really cherish. I would love if it would be like that, but I think my genie enjoys his isolation days in his lamp, he doesn't want to get disturbed. In the simple sense, I CAN'T MAKE MY WISH TO COME TRUE! So yeah, in the partying mind, I WOULD BE SPENDING THIS HEART'S DAY WITH MY PAREKOIS. ;)

The RS Musical is going to happen!! That's what we believe. We are starting to make plans and for real, we really want it to be a success. I just hope we've got enough time, since the deadline play is on March. Please. Please. ;)

And our IP, it's starting to make progress! We just made the method awhile ago and we hope that it will be effective. I don't really care anymore if it'll be effective. I just want to show that we've finished a study! That's it!

Toodles for now. I'll be starting on the Platinum's Class Revelation. I am actually inspired. Thank you.
BOW. ;)

Labels: school, update

Hey man! You are not mistaken. This is me. Ako nga to, in a Pinoy sense. Hahaha. I missed writing so much, I want to say sorry for not making an update or an update updating you that I will be on a slight leave. ;) There are a lot of pretty and ugly things that has happened to me in the past 30 days! So many that this page will get pretty overloaded.

(By the way, I am getting thin (for others) but the mirror says I am fat! So I better screw the calories!! Prom night is coming!!)

OUR HOUSE ALMOST BURNED INTO ASHES. I don't want to stress on it more, though. It was an ultimate traumatic experience, I would really pray for it to not happen EVER AGAIN in my life.

I GOT A NEW SUPERNOVA PHONE! Yeah. After five years of my life stuck with a five-year old phone, I got a new phone that got me so excited I can't really lay my hands off it. ;) It's pink and it's super friendly, I treat it as my new bestfriend!

I STARED AT HOT GUYS FOR TWO DAYS! I don't want to get exaggerated and all but the thing is, I found crushes and I can't get them out of my head!!! Aaaagh.

PROM IS ON FEB 11. I am not excited, but I'd rather enjoy it and party to death! I will enjoy the food and my dress na lang. It is the last prom so better make fun out of it!!

VALENTINES DAY IS ON NEXT SATURDAY. I don't have a date, which makes it a sad thing, but I got my friends, we will spend it BIG TIME!!

That's all for now.
;p

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* Below are surveys I got from sister Karen! ;) Visit her site for bloghopss.




I confess that in 2008 ...
(/) stayed single for the whole year
( ) kissed in the snow
(/) celebrated Halloween
(/) had your heart broken
(/) mooned someone
(/) went over the minutes on your cell phone
( ) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
(/) done something you've regretted
(/) painted a picture (if you call it a picture)
(/) wrote a poem
(/) ran a mile
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
( ) posted a blog on MySpace
( ) visited a foreign country
( ) cut in a line of waiting people
(/) told someone you were busy when you weren't
( ) partied to celebrate the new year
( ) cooked a disastrous meal
( ) lied about how old you were
( ) prank called someone
In 2008 I...
[/] broke a promise
[/] fell out of love
[/] lied
[/] cried over a broken heart
[/] disappointed someone close
[/] hid a secret
[/] pretended to be happy
[ ] slept under the table
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[/]forgot your new years resolution
[/] met someone who changed your life
[ ] met one of your idols
[/] changed your outlook on life
[/] sat home all day doing nothing
[ ] pretended to be sick
[ ] left the country
[/] almost died (hahaha.)
[/] given up on something/someone important to you
[//] lost something expensive
[/] learned something new about yourself
[/] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[/] made a change in your life
[/] found out who your true friends were
[///] met great people
[/] stayed up til sunrise
[///] cried over the silliest thing
[ ] had friends who were drifting away from you
[ ] had a high cell phone bill
[//] spent most of your money on food
[/] went to the beach with your best friend(s)
[/] gotten sick
[/] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[////]became closer with a lot of people

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1. Tiny
2. Hanna
3. Danilo
4. EJ
5. Val
6. Cess
7. Yn
8. Pat
9. Joan
10. Meynard
11. Thea
12. Omar
13. Mikko
14. Julian
15. Phil

1. Who is 4 going out with? - He's going out with me! Haha. ;p Si labs yan e.
2. Is 9 a boy or a girl? - Girl na girl yan. Dalaginding na nga e. ;p
3. Would 11 and 2 make a cute couple? - Nah. Both girls.
4. How about 10 and 4? - Ay shokla!
5. What grade is 7 in? - 4th yr like me. :)
6. When was the last time you talked to 12? - Kani-kanina lang. Sa text. :)
7. What is 6's favorite band? - Sampaguita siguro! O kaya Aegis. Hahaha. O kaya yung kumanta nung "Bawal na Gamot". Hahaha. Loka-loka yan e. :))
8. Does 1 have any siblings? - Yeah. She got 3.
9. Would you ever date 3? - Sure! Si Pot pa. :)
10. Would you ever date 7? - Kulet. Gurl nga e! :)
11. Is 15 single? - Oo. Pero hinde. Double-personality. Hahaha. Joke. Lalakeng-lalake yan. Ehem.
12. What's 5's middle name? - Custodio.
13. What's 10's fantasy? - to have an 18th debut party! Hahaha. Next year na yon mga loko. :)
14. Would 14 and 3 make a good couple? - Love triangle siguro! With 1. Hahahah.
15. What school does 2 go to? - RS. :)
16. Tell me a random fact about 11: - She loves Smartfood popcorn!
17. Have you ever had a crush on 5? - Kung lalake siya. Hahaha.
18. Where does 9 live? - Sa tabi ng volleyball court. Haha.
19. What's 8's favorite color? - Pink? Black? Yellow? Hahaha.
20. Would you make out with 14? - Hahaha. Kung gusto niya. JOKE! :)))
21. Are number 5 and 6 friends? - Yeah! MagBEH. :)
22. Does 7 like 11? - Yeah. SSG buddies. :)
23. Does 8 like 9? - Onaman!
24. How did you meet 15? - First year bestfriend. :)
25. Is 12 older than you? - Yes. :)

Labels: survey

It's a New Day! (And the happy holidays are finally coming to a close.) So, it's expected that I got new stuffs to share since it's the NEW year and everyone's got their NEW stories, I also better have my own NEW set of things to bring about.

I was lost for a matter of days because of busy lines of my calendar. We got a lot of travel trips (and I got my own lazy boohoos). Yeah. It is 2009 and I don't mind trashing out laziness into my system. Well, it's always a part of everyone! Maybe, I just minimize the amount of my couch potato seconds. Undoubtedly, blogging is just a personal responsibility (it should be just for pleasure!). Hahaha. Anyway, I got a new Belle de Jour planner. You might be saying that I won't even care to fill it up everyday, but sorry guys that's one of my NY's Resolution. I-have-to-make-my-life-more-organized resolution. Hahaha. It has these super coupons with discounts and paper portions wherein it's life-changing if I will just abide with it. I do still believe that change really starts from the heart and mind and yeah, the things in the planner is made by the heart and mind, and the hand. :) IT SHOULD HELP A LOT. ;p

I spent the New Year in this same house, so I am not sure if there'll be changes of the living space for the year. Wait! There'll be. I forgot that I'll be going into college this June. WAAAAAAA. Extreme college obliviousness! I am excited though. In a way. :) The use of firecrackers is totally banned in Olongapo, that's why it's a NEW sound of the NEW YEAR. Unpiercing/Undeafening sound of the environment. Hahaha. The thing with this 09 NY is that I munched a lot! I didn't jump, I think I got my height requirements already. Or maybe I want more if I want to be a dream model. Chika! ;p

I also welcomed the bang with BANGS. Full total bangs. Hahaha. People said it looked good, but others say its OK. So here's the thing, I don't care what other people say. As long as I am happy with this, ugly or not, I AM HAPPY! :p That's one brand new year's resolution. These past years I've been fighting with my low self esteem, and I think I gotta be someone who can stand tall despite imperfections. I want to leave insecurities in the past year. I also want to kill my attitude of pleasing others. It's best to please myself, and that's it. I won't stress myself a lot now. I will take care of myself! It's a NEW yet still the OLD me. (I'm confused) Hahaha.

It's one day away and I'll be walking on campus again (with my chin up to show everyone my stitch. lol). I don't want more issues of our Investigatory project. I just want to enjoy these last moments in our school. :)

So that's it.
Im close to Shippuden. Bwahaha.
TOODLES!

Labels: new, update

Merry Christmas to you guys!
Enjoy the day, and the spirit!
I'll be posting Christmas doodams tomorrow. :)
Toodles.

Labels: Christmas

Uh-huh. We're bound to another season of gift-giving (and food-eating), aren't you glad? Honestly, I can't feel a tingling breeze around me, but that doesn't matter. The biggest craze in town, crazier than the new Snowman Krispy Kreme, is Christ's breathing! Yehey! Pang-ilang beses na ba siyang pinanganak? Sino kayang nakabilang? Lol.

I seriously wish for some snow. Wouldn't it be fun sliding and making snowmen? If ever I completed the 9 Simbang Gabis, or went under a tunnel, or knew that it's 11:11 AM or PM, or just seen a shooting star, I'll be wishing for snow! SERIOUSLY!

Right now, I'm hours away for the magnificent day but apparently, the feeling is super ordinary. Para sakin kase, I feel Christmas when I see multi-colored lights. It's weird but, boy am I crazy? How can I view that when all I can see is this torturing white light coming from this technological creature infront of me? Another sign of the Christmasy vibe is the hyper attitude of the people in our house. Well, my dad's dozing his ass off because of his jet lag. My mom is enduring gray barbecue smoke for later's noche buena. My next-to-me brother is having his walk-my-foot with his G friends. My youngest brother is bugging everyone in our house to make him grape juice, and I am exposing all my insanities here. I think my lola is the only one who is acting elf today. She's cooking yumyum food for later's sharing. :)

I saw Mom wrapping gifts and I saw things for us, siblings. I didn't expect anything to unwrap at all. I am suprised and at the same time disappointed at myself that I haven't prepared anything for her. Well, I spent my money on some things (most are not for me). Sobrang mahal na kasi magregalo ngayon. E I'm not the type pa naman na todo ipon. I'm totally far from that. Basta may money, kashing! Lol. Maybe next year, I'll learn that. Hopefully, I'll take resolutions seriously and add ultimate saving up. :)

I went with mom, early in the morning, to the market, to have rush-hour Christmas shopping. I found something about myself. I actually am super stressing over overcrowded places. I totally hate it! Who doesn't? Especially in markets! How hard did I control myself of pricking each and everyone of them pushing me! My head hurt a lot because of the annoying people. Good thing, the hotdog saved me! I was tired from walking. To that person who mixed and concoctioned 'Sparkle', thank you for saving my hot throat (and hot head). :)

So, these next days, I'll not be around. The family has an important schedule (strictly for the family), and everyone should be present.

DEC. 25 - Christmas Day! We'll be going to Masinloc, Zambales to visit my dad's mother and my inaanak. For the first time, I got asked to be a ninang. I haven't seen this kid yet and I don't know how to treat kids! Hahaha. I am not a kid fanatic, especially girls! How nice, my first godchild is a girl. But anyway, when it's totally cute I can be in good terms with them. I can stand to not eat them for three minutes. Kidding.

DEC. 26 - I might stay at the house and watch some episodes of Naruto, as my everyday of the holidays had gone by. But for something to happen, I am planning to have a FULL-BANGS haircut. Yea. I am not kidding. I just looked into the mirror and realized that I look boring. Might as well try something new before 2009 erupt from its shell. Nothing will lose, I think (just some dignity if it went ultra bad).... and some hair! But I believe I can carry it. I practice looking with bangs, by lifting some hair up and folding it in my forehead for a 3D effect, the crazy me. And TADA! I've created a Siopao-looking girl with bangs. I just hope it will go well. Um. go best, instead! :)

Wait. I am not so sure, if at 26 we will go to Manila, but hopefully, not yet. :) I'm still excited for my haircut! If ever we'll go to the Metro, I think it'll be long. Um. A three-day stay is long enough, but I am still uncertain of the sched. I hate em parents. They tell it, but then they aren't sure of anything yet! They make me hope. For their info, I also got my own calendar. :( Okay. Im starting drama.

I need a journal, planner, personal notebook, or whatchamacallit notebook that plans your everyday cackadoodles. I am just tired of guessing and guessing what to do. It will be very essential for me, whose got my memory stuck in a bundle, every little detail in a bundle that if ever I misplace it, saying "fuck it" is the only thing I can do. Hahaha. It will also be nice for the 2009 drama. Well, it's always like that. January always look perfect. Let's get it specific. January 1s used to be perfect, with all the new lives, new manners, new nails, new hair, and everything. But when 2 arrives, kick ass, it's back to the old sinner.

Let's just pray hard.
Merry Christmas to everyone!
Enjoy the glitters and glamour of the season.
I'll give ye a hug! *embrace!
Toodles!

Labels: Christmas, life, plans, random

I read a post by SAMANTHA, talkin' about a whimsical, funky, and undefined dream. It was scary and at the same time very meaningful. It was about love and all the crazy advices anyone can give to a taped, wasted heart. :)

So, I might talk about love today (get yourself ready for the funny and cheesy part). I just realized what love brings to our lives. It's so magical and to-the-umpteenth-level foolish! We all fall for this word, and no matter the too many times we have fallen, we still keep on falling and falling. It's like poison to the lips, but we want to keep drinking. It makes us shatter but we will always mend ourselves to shatter again. It makes us dance to its rhythm and never get tired to its anything-goes beat. Whatever happens we'll always want to be IN LOVE, because despite all the pain and tiresome pages of this adventure, it's like a drug that satisfies our every beating.

Nakakatanga na nga minsan, diba? It's always the battle between the wrong and the right, the real and the fake, the happy and the sad part. We always have to choose, and whatever we choose, we lose. The delightedness is always ephemeral. At a point in time, it always have to end, pero yun na nga, we fall in love more and more. Para tayong mga sadista na natutuwa sa pain at loneliness. Andaming cases ng failed love, pero kahit gaano pa ka-painful at karami na yon, we are still willing to get a dose of it. It's a priceless thing. You won't even care kahit na hindi masuklian yung binigay mo, because you are not buying at all, you just give it. You offer it like a shiny coin to the child beggar. You might (or might not) expect something back, but it doesn't matter as long as you express it. Kahit walang-wala ka na, you will sacrifice everything para lang maiparamdam yung love na yun to this luckiest person.

I'm getting cheesy here, ayoko na! Okay, I'll spill it out. I am going super corny right here because I am loveless today, and that's the piece that's been missing in my life. I have this ultimate crush, but I don't know where to find him! I've got people around me to love, but I just can't find someone for me. I don't want a boyfriend. I don't want commitment. I just want to crush on someone who will also have the tendency to crush on me. That's it. I want a total inspiration, but it looks like it's getting hopeless. Hahaha. Someday is to come, baby.

So, I gotta stop this love thing. I got tired once because of my selflessness. The truth is I've surrendered because it's the right thing. I haven't expressed because I was scared, and I know that it will just make things worse. Nobody knows it but me. I gotta let go because that's what it's supposed to be. I thought it was easy, but I was wrong. It was super-difficult-close-to-impossible thing. I thought it was a piece of cake, but it was a piece of the worst-tasting, seven-layered chocolate cake. Thoughts can kill (Lahat ng akala, nakakamatay.) Hahaha. I'm getting stupid in here.

I went with Moks and Sea this day for a talk and a small get-together, just to update each and everyone. We talked about a lotta stuffs: family matters, future plans, and the highlight of the night, our dysfunctional lovelife. We all suffer the Cold Christmas syndrome. Yeah, too bad for this year, but we thought of the advantages! We get to not think of the best present for our partners, and we get to enjoy the holidays with family and friends, with no jealousy and love quarrels! Isn't it nice being single? :p

The thing is, love goes around the world. It is always in everyone's world. And it comes in different forms, if you don't know. It doesn't only come in the opposite-sex form. It can come in a family member, in a friend, in a pet, or in that Coke float. All we gotta do is appreciate the love we receive and make things matter. Replace it with love and hug each other. Men will be proud of men. Make more love and less war this Christmas! It's the best gift for everyone! ;p ;p

I gotta go.
Naruto is waiting for me.
Stuck in Episode 153.
I need to go Shippuden, so I gotta move fast!

Enjoy the Holidays!
Toodles!

Labels: get-together, life, love, pain

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