Overview
I just changed the spelling of my name from CHARMAINE to CHARMAIGNE.
I don't know, I must have enjoyed it with a G.
It will really look more classy, if it would have been like that.
Well, I thought of making it CHARMOEN (to look German).
I am a proud Filipino, yet I get to be a critique when it comes to names.
Since you'll stick with it forever why not change it into the way you like it, right?
I've always wanted to add Maria infront of it, to look old-Pinoy-fashioned, and because I am jealous that most of my friends got two first names unlike me who got a simple English name, Charmaine.
My last name is purely Filipino that is DIMACULANGAN. In the Philippines it means "enough" or more close to its articulation "not less".
I was always teased when I am in grade school, but then I learn that people mature and get on with their life without getting to find my last name funny.
I am turning sixteen on March, getting to know COLLEGE more, so I expect people to be mature than they are supposed to be.
CHARMAINE means a beautiful orchard. I am definitely not an orchard, so I'll agree with being beautiful. ;p
It also means "to sing", which is quite oppressive and pressure-giving since I don't got a voice the name CHARMAINE should be having. I just love to sing karaoke songs!
It also means "to be a rich and successful lady", that is, I just made it up. But I know it'll come true. ;p
All in all, I am enjoying my almost-sixteen years of existence, I don't want to finish it off with stupid things and beliefs.
I have always wanted to enjoy life, and that's what I'm doing.
I walk in the street certain of tripping myself with the pavement or just with my own foot, and I am proud of it.
I will see pretty girls walking with me in the same sidewalk, but I will not develop the stimulus called INSECURITY.
I will cherish my supercalifragilistic moments, and I will absolutely share it to people like you. :)
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 Saturday gives me more rest than I ever wanted. I love the feeling. The swathing part is the stinking temperature of Philippines. ;p *I woke up around 9.30. I looked at the mirror, as always and I exclaimed one thing, "I want to go the derma at this exact moment!" Oiliness crept my face as if it's a leech, my face as blood. I hate my face more and more each day. If these zits are the outcome of puberty, can I stay a kid forever? I blame my glands for everything. They say that stress adds up the agony, but it's them pimples that give me stress! UGH TO THE MILLIONTH TIME!*Anyway, I breathed deep (I always do when I disappoint myself). I smiled. WOOHOO. And went to the breakfast table immediately. (: I ate like normal days with a slice of BROWNIES! Yum. But still, the 32 degrees pissed me. * This day was INTERNET day. I was happy to know that our connection started to act normal also. But then, the memory of our PC lags! I hate it. I can't use it enthusiastically. But I was happy to hear my iTunes keeping me tuned again. * Forget About Me and Miss Independent were the two songs I alternately play in my list. I love the rhythm, sound and everything! (: By the way, I wish my mother's friend answer our tickets to the Rihanna-Chris Brown concert! OMFG! That will be totally rad! Ang sabi kase dati kay mommy, he'll treat us front seats! Pwedeng VIP pass nadin? Awwww. But still the thought of it keeps me dreaming. *I went with my dad to the derma. I was shy yet happy that I'll have a chance to fix this face again. My last derma was crazy I think. Or maybe not that influential enough to kick my pimples outta my face. I hope with the medications my newly-trusted doctor gave me, --that's worth a lot for a face-wrangling transformation-- my face would gleam a bit. (: HOW I WISH. *I had a dose of the Eclipse again, and now I am effin determined to finish it. (I finished it, later in the day.) I TOTALLY LOVE JACOB BLACK!PERSONAL THOUGHTS OF ECLIPSE
I got tired of Edward being perfect and so, I loved Jacob's imperfections. Most of my friends who were dismantled by the Twilight typhoon hates Jacob's role in the book. But I see it as a nice twist. I love Jacob's nature... He is so off the hook for me. Syrinch hated Eclipse because of Jacob, when I loved it because of Jacob! I feel entertained. (: Yum. And I thought, Edward is just a fantasy. Noone can exist as perfect as he is. Might as well find Jacob. (: *But I still dream of meeting an Edward!
I got carried away of the pain Jacob felt. I cried in the chapter entitled "ETHICS". That was my favorite. I reread the chapter over and over again. Below are my favorite excerpts from the chapter. I am asking apologies from those who haven't read the Eclipse yet. from the conversation of Bella and Jacob.
"What do you mean by 'be good'?".
"I'll be your friend, Bella," he said quietly. "I won't ask for more than that."
"I think it's too late for that, Jake. How can we be friends, when we love each other like this?"
He looked at the ceiling, his stare intent, as if he were reading something that was written there. "Maybe... it will have to be a long-distance friendship."
"You know the story in the Bible?" Jacob asked suddenly, still reading the blank ceiling. "The one with the king and the two women fighting over the baby?"
"Sure. King Solomon."
"That's right. King Solomon," he repeated. "And he said, cut the kid in half... but it was only a test. Just to see who would give up their share to protect it."
"Yeah, I remember."
He looked back at my face. "I'm not going to cut you in half anymore, Bella."
"Can I tell you what the worst part is?" he asked hesitantly when I said nothing. "Do you mind? I am going to be good."
"Will it help?" I whispered.
"It might. It couldn't hurt."
"What's the worst part, then?"
"The worst part is knowing what would have been."
"What might have been." I sighed.
"No." Jacob shook his head. "I'm exactly right for you, Bella. It would have been effortless for us -- comfortable, easy as breathing. I was the natural path your life would have taken..." He stared into space for a moment, and I waited. "If the world was the way it was supposed to be, if there were no monsters and no magic..."
"He's like a drug for you, Bella." His voice was still gentle, not at all critical. "I see that you can't live without him now. It's too late. But I would have been healthier for you. Not a drug; I would have been the air, the sun."
The corner of my mouth turned up in a wistful half-smile. "I used to think of you that way, you know. Like the sun. My personal sun. You balanced out the clouds nicely for me."
He sighed. "The clouds I can handle. But I can't fight with an ECLIPSE.
I stretched my neck up to whisper in his ear, laying my cheek against his warm skin. "You know I love you."
"I know," he breathed, his arm tightening automatically around my waist. "You know how much I wish it was enough."
"Yes."
"I'll always be waiting in the wings, Bella," he promised, lightening his tone and loosening his arm.
Meanwhile, this was from the epilogue, in the person of Jacob Black.
If only I could stop hearing, stop seeing what they saw. My head was so crowded, but the only way to be alone again was to be human, and I couldn't stand the pain.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR BREAKING DAWN!!! I'LL START TO READ IT, PDF FILE STYLE!*Tomorrow will be my entrance test to La Salle. Wish me luck peeps! I am thinking of wearing my Ateneo t-shirt. Just kiddin! (: (: We're off to Manila at 9.30. Weehee. Car moments. *Goodnight. Halloween's coming. I was right of the monsters going home. WINK. Labels: pimples, rest, the twilight saga
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Saturday gives me more rest than I ever wanted. I love the feeling. The swathing part is the stinking temperature of Philippines. ;p *I woke up around 9.30. I looked at the mirror, as always and I exclaimed one thing, "I want to go the derma at this exact moment!" Oiliness crept my face as if it's a leech, my face as blood. I hate my face more and more each day. If these zits are the outcome of puberty, can I stay a kid forever? I blame my glands for everything. They say that stress adds up the agony, but it's them pimples that give me stress! UGH TO THE MILLIONTH TIME!*Anyway, I breathed deep (I always do when I disappoint myself). I smiled. WOOHOO. And went to the breakfast table immediately. (: I ate like normal days with a slice of BROWNIES! Yum. But still, the 32 degrees pissed me. * This day was INTERNET day. I was happy to know that our connection started to act normal also. But then, the memory of our PC lags! I hate it. I can't use it enthusiastically. But I was happy to hear my iTunes keeping me tuned again. * Forget About Me and Miss Independent were the two songs I alternately play in my list. I love the rhythm, sound and everything! (: By the way, I wish my mother's friend answer our tickets to the Rihanna-Chris Brown concert! OMFG! That will be totally rad! Ang sabi kase dati kay mommy, he'll treat us front seats! Pwedeng VIP pass nadin? Awwww. But still the thought of it keeps me dreaming. *I went with my dad to the derma. I was shy yet happy that I'll have a chance to fix this face again. My last derma was crazy I think. Or maybe not that influential enough to kick my pimples outta my face. I hope with the medications my newly-trusted doctor gave me, --that's worth a lot for a face-wrangling transformation-- my face would gleam a bit. (: HOW I WISH. *I had a dose of the Eclipse again, and now I am effin determined to finish it. (I finished it, later in the day.) I TOTALLY LOVE JACOB BLACK!PERSONAL THOUGHTS OF ECLIPSE
I got tired of Edward being perfect and so, I loved Jacob's imperfections. Most of my friends who were dismantled by the Twilight typhoon hates Jacob's role in the book. But I see it as a nice twist. I love Jacob's nature... He is so off the hook for me. Syrinch hated Eclipse because of Jacob, when I loved it because of Jacob! I feel entertained. (: Yum. And I thought, Edward is just a fantasy. Noone can exist as perfect as he is. Might as well find Jacob. (: *But I still dream of meeting an Edward!
I got carried away of the pain Jacob felt. I cried in the chapter entitled "ETHICS". That was my favorite. I reread the chapter over and over again. Below are my favorite excerpts from the chapter. I am asking apologies from those who haven't read the Eclipse yet. from the conversation of Bella and Jacob.
"What do you mean by 'be good'?".
"I'll be your friend, Bella," he said quietly. "I won't ask for more than that."
"I think it's too late for that, Jake. How can we be friends, when we love each other like this?"
He looked at the ceiling, his stare intent, as if he were reading something that was written there. "Maybe... it will have to be a long-distance friendship."
"You know the story in the Bible?" Jacob asked suddenly, still reading the blank ceiling. "The one with the king and the two women fighting over the baby?"
"Sure. King Solomon."
"That's right. King Solomon," he repeated. "And he said, cut the kid in half... but it was only a test. Just to see who would give up their share to protect it."
"Yeah, I remember."
He looked back at my face. "I'm not going to cut you in half anymore, Bella."
"Can I tell you what the worst part is?" he asked hesitantly when I said nothing. "Do you mind? I am going to be good."
"Will it help?" I whispered.
"It might. It couldn't hurt."
"What's the worst part, then?"
"The worst part is knowing what would have been."
"What might have been." I sighed.
"No." Jacob shook his head. "I'm exactly right for you, Bella. It would have been effortless for us -- comfortable, easy as breathing. I was the natural path your life would have taken..." He stared into space for a moment, and I waited. "If the world was the way it was supposed to be, if there were no monsters and no magic..."
"He's like a drug for you, Bella." His voice was still gentle, not at all critical. "I see that you can't live without him now. It's too late. But I would have been healthier for you. Not a drug; I would have been the air, the sun."
The corner of my mouth turned up in a wistful half-smile. "I used to think of you that way, you know. Like the sun. My personal sun. You balanced out the clouds nicely for me."
He sighed. "The clouds I can handle. But I can't fight with an ECLIPSE.
I stretched my neck up to whisper in his ear, laying my cheek against his warm skin. "You know I love you."
"I know," he breathed, his arm tightening automatically around my waist. "You know how much I wish it was enough."
"Yes."
"I'll always be waiting in the wings, Bella," he promised, lightening his tone and loosening his arm.
Meanwhile, this was from the epilogue, in the person of Jacob Black.
If only I could stop hearing, stop seeing what they saw. My head was so crowded, but the only way to be alone again was to be human, and I couldn't stand the pain.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR BREAKING DAWN!!! I'LL START TO READ IT, PDF FILE STYLE!*Tomorrow will be my entrance test to La Salle. Wish me luck peeps! I am thinking of wearing my Ateneo t-shirt. Just kiddin! (: (: We're off to Manila at 9.30. Weehee. Car moments. *Goodnight. Halloween's coming. I was right of the monsters going home. WINK. Labels: pimples, rest, the twilight saga
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